slow and steady will one day win the race

It is a constant fight. It is in a single moment of weakness in which I fantasize a different reality that causes me to stray, left feeling shameful of this sin. I believe God is showing me I am not a good stewart. I am not honoring him and his people. I seek and ask for things I do not posess, but why should I be given them if I am lacking the abilities to take care of and respect what I have already so graciously been given.

A lesson learned today after finding the intensity I have been searching for. Another surreal sequence of events: most excellent high- until my mind wandering that it was, carried me far from the truth and feeling of pure bliss.

Seek ye first the kingdom of God…

How does one follow through?